Late Bloomer

 

It was a wonderful combination, a great sound system and amazing music.  It wasn’t something you just heard but felt as well.  It was like a great book that you never wanted to end.  As long as you keep reading, the characters keep living, and the story goes on. 

Unrelated to sight or sound, I had a similar feeling once when suddenly, for whatever reason, my brain understood fractions.  I can still recall it.  I had been working for many years as an engineer.  The company I worked for called me an engineer, even though my degree was in behavioral science.  I was doing the work of an engineer, but with one hand tied behind my back.  For me, math had always been a stumbling block.  I have no idea what triggered my brain to suddenly catch on, but it did.  It was a very Ah HA! moment.  All of a sudden I felt comfortable in my surroundings. I fit in.

Every time I pick up Mr. Tyson's book, Astrophysics for people in a hurry I keep waiting for my brain to once again get it.  So far it hasn't kicked in.  I'm reading the words and sort of understanding the concepts but without the ah Ha!  I doubt I will ever fit in to any of this, even though I haven't given up.

I see my brain as a black hole and even though I keep trying, all I see is dark matter instead of gray matter.  I need some sort of mental particle accelerator.  Or maybe I shouldn't be in such a hurry. 

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